Boy do I know this feeling.
Have you seen invasion of the body snatchers when they point at the one who is not like them open their mouth and make this shrill shreeking sound.
This is how I felt after I started questioning in my study.
My husband went back to the Kingdumb hall for a short while after we got married and I being the good and dutiful wife said yes I would study for the unity of our family.
I was given a copy of Crisis of Conscience by someone and I started asking all kinds of questions in my study.
I was labeled apostate faster than you could snap your fingers.
They even talked about our family from the platform about the trouble with marrying outside of the "truth"